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>> THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED

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MYSELF, I WEIGHED 337 POUNDS,

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AND I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, "THAT'S

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NOT BIG.

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THAT'S NOT BAD AT ALL."

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AND WHEN I STEPPED ON THE SCALE

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AND IT SAID 645, I STARTED

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CRYING RIGHT THEN AND THERE.

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BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, YOU'RE FACED

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WITH THAT NOW.

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A DOCTOR TOLD MY MOM THAT I

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WOULD GO TO SLEEP AND DIE.

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YOU KNOW, IF I DIDN'T HAVE THE

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SURGERY, THERE WOULD BE NO LIFE.

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>> LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK.

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LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK.

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THIS IS NOT EASY.

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>> COME OVER AND LIFT!

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>> HE'S BECOMING INDEPENDENT,

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AND I THINK HE'S FRIGHTENED

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ABOUT THAT.

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>> OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP WAS

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BASED ON ME BEING FAT.

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AND NOW HE SEES ME GETTING MY

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LIFE BACK, AND HE'S AFRAID I'M

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GONNA LEAVE HIM.

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IT'S NOT LIKE I SET OUT TO BE

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700 POUNDS.

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IT JUST HAPPENED.

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PEOPLE LOOK AT ME WITH SUCH

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DISGUST.

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I FIGURE I CAN EITHER DIE ON THE

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OPERATING TABLE TRYING TO GET

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HEALTHY OR I CAN DIE BECAUSE I'M

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645 POUNDS.

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I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE.

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>> SHE'S DOING MORE FOR HERSELF

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NOW.

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SHE'S GETTING HER LIFE BACK.

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>> I'M READY TO BE A MOM.

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I'M READY TO HAVE A JOB.

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OH, MY GOSH.

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I GOT JEANS ON.

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OH!

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YOU WANT TO START MOVING ON

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WITH YOUR LIFE, BUT IT'S VERY

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HARD ON A RELATIONSHIP.

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CHRIS, STOP, PLEASE.

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I THINK HONESTLY SOMETIMES YOU

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MISS THE FAT ME.

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>> YEAH, I KNOW.

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>> IT WAS SO MUCH HARDER THAN I

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THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO BE JUST

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TO KEEP MY WEIGHT DOWN.

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BUT I DID WHAT I HAD TO DO.

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THIS PICTURE IS AMAZING.

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I DON'T EVEN LOOK LIKE THE SAME

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PERSON.

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MY FACE LOOKS DIFFERENT.

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MY BODY LOOKS DIFFERENT.

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WOW.

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LOOK HOW FAR I'VE COME.

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MY RING SIZE WENT FROM A 13 1/2

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TO A 10 1/2.

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AND THEN MY ARMS, OF COURSE --

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YOU CAN SEE ALL THAT.

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BUT I CAN FINALLY CROSS MY LEGS.

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I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THAT.

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AND WHEN THE SKIN IS GONE, IT'LL

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LOOK EVEN BETTER.

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CAN YOU BELIEVE THESE PICTURES?

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>> I KNOW, MELISSA.

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I [SIGHS] I KNOW.

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>> MELISSA, HOW ARE YOU?

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>> I'M FINE. HOW ARE YOU?

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>> ARE YOU WORRIED?

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>> NO.

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>> ME EITHER.

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I'M JUST NOT FOR SOME ODD

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REASON.

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THE LAST TIME, I CRIED LIKE A

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BIG BABY.

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I'M JUST NOT WORRIED THIS TIME.

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I'M EXCITED FOR IT TO FINALLY

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HAPPEN.

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>> [ LAUGHS ]

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>> TAKE YOUR TIME NOW.

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>> OKAY. THAT'S FINE.

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>> TO ME, THE SAGGING SKIN AND

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THE ROLLS LOOKS ALMOST AS BAD AS

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THE SKIN FILLED UP WITH FAT.

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I HOPE IT WORKS.

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ALL MY LIFE, I'VE BEEN FAT.

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ALL MY LIFE.

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>> OKAY, MELISSA, CAN YOU TURN A

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LITTLE BIT THIS WAY FOR ME?

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>> FOR ONE TIME IN MY LIFE, I'D

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LIKE TO BE NORMAL.

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>> ALL RIGHT.

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>> ...FOR TOO LONG, OKAY?

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>> YOU KNOW THAT WE ARE

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FINISHED.

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CAN YOU OPEN YOUR EYES?

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>> THE THING ABOUT MY FAMILY IS,

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WE'VE ALWAYS HAD TO TAKE CARE OF

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SOMEBODY.

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I THINK IT'S FROM WHEN MY DAD

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GOT HURT.

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IN 1981, HE GOT ELECTROCUTED.

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HE LOST A HAND, GOT BURNED,

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ABOUT 30% TO 40% OF HIS BODY.

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AND THEN I MET MELISSA, AND THEN

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I ENDED UP TAKING CARE OF HER.

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I HAD ACTUALLY RESIGNED MYSELF

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TO THE FACT THAT I PROBABLY WAS

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GONNA TAKE CARE OF HER AND THEN

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I WAS GOING TO HAVE TO BURY HER.

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I THOUGHT ABOUT IT EVERY DAY,

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THAT I'D COME HOME AND FIND HER

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DEAD LAYING IN THE BED, SITTING

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IN THE CHAIR BECAUSE HER BODY

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GAVE OUT.

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>> 285.

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THIS IS THE FIRST TIME YOU'VE

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BEEN UNDER 300 FOR A WHILE, HUH?

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>> AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER.

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>> ARE YOU DECENT?

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LET ME LOOK AT YOU. TURN AROUND.

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WOW. YOU LOOK NORMAL.

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>> THANK YOU, EVERYBODY.

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>> ALL RIGHT.

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WE'LL SEE Y'ALL IN A COUPLE

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MONTHS.

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>> I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT I

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LOOK LIKE.

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FIRST I WAS DISAPPOINTED IT WAS

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ONLY 30 POUNDS, BUT I'M

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SATISFIED WITH THE SURGERY,

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THOUGH.

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I THINK HE DID A GOOD JOB.

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I JUST LIKE BEING HOME.

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SURPRISINGLY, IT'S NOT AS

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PAINFUL AS I THOUGHT IT WAS

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GONNA BE.

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I THOUGHT THERE WOULD BE A

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LITTLE MORE PAIN.

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GONNA BE NICE LETTING ME THROUGH

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THE HALL.

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I DON'T WANT TO BE TEENY TINY.

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I WANT TO HAVE A LITTLE BIT OF

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BUTT AND A LITTLE BIT OF BOOBS.

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BUT, YOU KNOW, I'M JUST THIS

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CLOSE TO 100 NOW.

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I'M ONLY 86 POUNDS FROM BEING

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DOWN TO 199.

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THAT'S GONNA BE A HUGE

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MILESTONE.

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I'VE BEEN HOOKED UP TO THIS

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THING NOW, WHAT -- TWO WEEKS?

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>> TWO WEEKS.

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>> MY FIRST WEEK, IT'S, "CAN I

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GO HOME?

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CAN I GO HOME? CAN I GO HOME?"

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MY THIRD WEEK, IT WAS, "OKAY,

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I'LL STAY UNTIL YOU THINK I'M

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BETTER."

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>> I THINK MELISSA IS TRYING TOO

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HARD TO DIET AND LOSE MORE

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WEIGHT.

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>> I WASN'T EATING.

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LIKE, THREE BITES OFF OF A

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CHICKEN LEG WOULD BE A MEAL FOR

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ME.

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I THOUGHT I WAS DOING GOOD

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'CAUSE I WAS LOSING, LIKE, SIX

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POUNDS A WEEK.

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>> ON JUNE 16th, SHE FAINTED,

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AND I'M GONNA HAVE TO CALL

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911.

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SO I'M LIKE, "WAKE UP! WAKE UP!

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WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"

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I'M LIKE, "MELISSA! MELISSA!"

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>> HELLO. HOW YOU ALL DOING?

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>> DOCTOR NOWZARADAN SAID I HAD

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TO GET SOMETHING CALLED A WOUND

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VAC.

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IT JUST SUCKS YOUR SKIN TOGETHER

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SO IT WILL HEAL.

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>> THE ONLY THING WE NEED TO DO

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IN HERE TO CREATE A LITTLE

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OPENING FOR THE SUCTION

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APPARATUS.

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MELISSA HAS PUSHED HER BODY UP

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TO THE LIMIT.

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SHE'S DONE SOME DAMAGE THAT IS

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GOING TO TAKE SOME TIME TO HEAL.

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HOW MUCH LONGER MELISSA CAN

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EXPECT TO STAY IN THE HOSPITAL

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IS UNCERTAIN.

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>> [ Voice breaking ] I WANT TO

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GO HOME TODAY.

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NOT TOMORROW AFTERNOON.

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NOT TOMORROW EVENING.

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ALL I DO ALL DAY LONG IS SLEEP.

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AND I HATE TO SLEEP, 'CAUSE IT

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REMINDS ME OF BEFORE, 'CAUSE

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BEFORE THAT'S ALL I DID WAS

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SLEEP ALL DAY LONG.

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AND NOW I'M BACK TO THAT.

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>> I HATE TO SEE HER UPSET.

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I'M JUST READY FOR LIFE TO GET

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BACK TO NORMAL.

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>> I'M VERY UPSET.

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IT'S GETTING BAD.

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I MEAN, IT'S GETTING MENTALLY

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BAD.

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>> MELISSA IS STILL WALKING LIKE

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SHE'S 650 POUNDS, SO THE SUTURES

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PULLED THROUGH AND SOME PART OF

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THE INCISION FELL APART.

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ALL RIGHT.

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MELISSA, WE'RE GONNA CHANGE

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YOUR BANDAGES TODAY.

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WITH WALKING, SHE JUST

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ESSENTIALLY WALKS WITH A SWING.

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SHE TORE UP THE INCISION.

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>> SHE STILL SEES HERSELF AS A

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600-POUND WOMAN.

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SHE WILL TURN SIDEWAYS TO GO

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INTO THE BATHROOM OR GO INTO

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THE BEDROOM.

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WHEN I WATCH HER WALK, SHE WOULD

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MOVE, SWINGING HER BODY LIKE SHE

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WAS STILL MOVING ALL THAT

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WEIGHT.

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AND SHE THOUGHT, "I CAN'T SHAKE

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THAT FAT-PERSON COMPLEX."

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>> YOU KNOW, I SPENT MOST OF THE

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LAST 10 YEARS BEING DEPRESSED

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AND SAD AND IN A CAGE, IT FELT

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LIKE.

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AND TO GO BACK TO BEING NEGATIVE

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INSIDE IS JUST GONNA PUT ME

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BACK WHERE I DON'T WANT TO BE.

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>> I DON'T THINK SHE REGRETS

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HAVING THE SURGERY, BECAUSE, YOU

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KNOW, THE SKIN'S GOT TO GO.

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BUT I THINK THAT THIS HAS BEEN A

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HUGE SETBACK.

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>> KNOCK, KNOCK.

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>> COME IN.

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>> HOW DID YOU KNOW WE WERE

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HERE?

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>> BECAUSE I HEARD ONE OF THEM

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SAY "MELISSA."

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>> THIS IS THE WHOLE FAMILY.

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>> SHE CALLED ME, AND SHE WAS

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CRYING, AND SHE SAID, "MAMA,

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I'VE BEEN LYING TO YOU.

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I'M NOT DOING VERY GOOD."

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AND I SAID, "WHAT DO YOU MEAN?"

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AND SHE SAID, "MOM, I'M TIRED.

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I'M DONE. I'M DONE.

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I'M NOT GOING TO THE DOCTOR NO

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MORE.

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I'M DONE."

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I SAID, "YOU CANNOT BE DONE."

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>> SHE WAS READY TO GIVE UP.

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SHE WAS HURTING SO BAD.

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AND I HAVEN'T HEARD MY SISTER

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WANT TO GIVE UP ON ANYTHING

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SINCE SHE'S HAD THE SURGERY.

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>> EVERYBODY OUT THERE WAS

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PRAYING AND WORRYING ABOUT YOU.

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>> TODAY SHE'S GOT HER WILL

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BACK.

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SHE'S BACK TO THE HAPPY MELISSA

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THAT I REMEMBER WAY BEFORE SHE

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EVER GAINED THIS WEIGHT.

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[ CHUCKLES ] IT'S GOOD.

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OH, IT'S BEEN HARD.

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>> IT WAS EXTREMELY FUN,

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EXTREMELY EXCITING, EXTREMELY

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SAD ALL AT THE SAME TIME TO SEE

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MY FAMILY.

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ALL RIGHT.

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>> GO.

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>> I'M GOING.

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>> I'M NOT TRYING TO RUSH YOU

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INTO THE CAR.

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I'M TRYING TO --

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>> AAH!

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AFTER THE COMPLICATIONS WITH

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THE SKIN SURGERY, I REALIZED I

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NEEDED TO BE HOME WITH MY

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FAMILY.

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I JUST NEEDED MY FAMILY.

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I'M REALLY, REALLY READY TO BE

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HOME.

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WE ALWAYS DROVE BACK TO OHIO.

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WE NORMALLY TRAVELED AT NIGHT

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BECAUSE I WAS EMBARRASSED OF

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MYSELF.

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I GAVE HIM THE OPTION ALL THE

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TIME OF, "YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO

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THIS."

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I KNEW IT WAS HARD ON HIM.

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>> THE WORD "QUIT" FOR ME, AS

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FAR AS MELISSA GOES AND AS

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FAR AS TAKING CARE OF HER, I

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DON'T KNOW THE MEANING OF THE

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WORD.

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>> BUT YOU HAVE TO ADMIT, WE

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HAD HARD TIMES.

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>> I'M NOT SAYING IT HASN'T BEEN

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ALL PEACHES AND CREAM.

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>> WHEN WE WAS IN SCHOOL, HE

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USED TO TALK TO OTHER WOMEN.

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BE HONEST ABOUT IT.

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>> WHY WOULD YOU EVEN BRING THAT

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UP?

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>> IT'S THE TRUTH.

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>> WHY WOULD YOU --

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WHY WOULD YOU EVEN BRING IT UP?

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>> IT WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF ME

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BEING THE WEIGHT I WAS AT.

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>> YEAH, IT WAS, OKAY?

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AND I REGRET IT.

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>> I MEAN, YOU NEVER WENT

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THROUGH WITH IT, BUT YOU THOUGHT

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ABOUT IT.

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>> NOTHING EVER HAPPENED, AND I

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REALLY WISH YOU WOULDN'T HAVE

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BROUGHT THAT UP.

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>> OHH.

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HEY, MOM.

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>> THAT'S WHEN SHE WAS HOME LAST

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TIME.

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THAT'S WHAT MOST PEOPLE THINK

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SHE LOOKS LIKE.

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>> HELLO, BEAUTIFUL.

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WHAT'S THE MATTER?

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>> POOR BABY.

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>> POOR BABY?

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WHY YOU SAY POOR BABY?

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DON'T CRY.

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LOOK HOW SKINNY I AM.

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YOU CAN GET YOUR ARMS ALL THE

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WAY AROUND ME.

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FEEL.

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>> [ LAUGHS ]

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>> IT'S ALWAYS A BIG DEAL TO GO

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BACK AND SEE MY FAMILY.

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IT WAS EVERYTHING I NEEDED.

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>> LOOK AT YOU. HI.

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>> MY FAMILY IS MY SOURCE OF

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STRENGTH.

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IT'S EXCITING FOR THEM BECAUSE

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THEY COULDN'T BELIEVE HOW THIN I

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WAS.

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WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT ME LIKE

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I'M WEIRD?

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>> 'CAUSE YOU DON'T LOOK LIKE

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YOURSELF.

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>> HOW YOU FEELING?

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>> I'M ALL RIGHT.

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JUST A LITTLE SORE, BUT I'M ALL

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RIGHT.

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IT WAS HARD FOR THEM TO SEE THE

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CHANGES HAPPENING.

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THIS TIME, I HAD OPEN WOUNDS

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THAT NEEDED TO BE TAKEN CARE OF.

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THIS ONE'S BEEN THE HARDEST

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SURGERY.

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BUT WOULD I CHANGE MY MIND AND

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NOT DO IT AGAIN?

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I'D DO IT EVERY TIME.

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>> WE MATCH NOW, DON'T WE, BABY?

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>> [ LAUGHS ]

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>> I WISH I WAS THAT SKINNY.

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WE WOULDN'T BE GOING THROUGH ALL

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THIS, NOW, WOULD WE?

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ONCE I WENT HOME AND SEEN MY

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FAMILY AND EVERYBODY'S REACTION

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TO THE SIZE I WAS, IT WAS REALLY

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ENCOURAGING.

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WHEN YOU BECOME SEMI-NORMAL,

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THAT'S WHEN IT GOT EASIER.

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TO GIVE IN TO, "OH, I'M HUNGRY.

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I NEED TO EAT SOMETHING."

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JUST A VERY LITTLE BIT 'CAUSE I

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WANT TO SAVE ROOM FOR EVERYTHING

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ELSE.

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CHRIS, JUST A LITTLE.

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>> IT IS A LITTLE.

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>> THAT'S NOT A LITTLE.

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AND I SAID A LITTLE BOWL.

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THEN YOU WASTED THIS.

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I COULD EASILY BE RIGHT BACK UP

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THERE WHERE I WAS.

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AND I'M DETERMINED TO KEEP IT IN

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CHECK.

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>> HI, MELISSA.

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>> I DON'T EVER REMEMBER BEING

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THIS SMALL.

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I LITERALLY DON'T REMEMBER EVER

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BEING 220.

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ALL MY CLOTHES ARE TOO BIG.

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00:15:27,067 --> 00:15:28,767
EVEN MY SMALLEST PAIR OF PANTS

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ARE TOO BIG.

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00:15:29,933 --> 00:15:32,367
BUT NOW IT'S NOT EVEN ABOUT THE

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00:15:32,367 --> 00:15:33,733
NUMBER ANYMORE.

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00:15:33,733 --> 00:15:36,467
IT'S ABOUT THE LIFE AFTER.

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00:15:36,467 --> 00:15:37,333
>> HOW ARE YOU?

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00:15:37,333 --> 00:15:38,667
>> I'M DOING REALLY GOOD.

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I FEEL GOOD.

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FIRST GOAL IS A JOB.

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00:15:41,933 --> 00:15:44,233
SECOND GOAL IS GETTING PREGNANT.

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THAT IS SO MY GOAL.

428
00:15:45,733 --> 00:15:47,400
>> THIS IS COMPLETELY HEALED.

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AND EVENTUALLY, WE'RE GONNA BE

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ABLE TO TAKE THAT SCAR THEN

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00:15:50,733 --> 00:15:52,400
CLOSE THAT.

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00:15:52,400 --> 00:15:54,433
ALMOST HEALED UP ON YOUR

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INCISION.

434
00:15:55,400 --> 00:15:56,367
YOU'RE DOING GOOD.

435
00:15:56,367 --> 00:15:57,367
>> THANK YOU.

436
00:15:57,367 --> 00:15:59,333
>> THEY'LL TAKE THE SCARS OFF.

437
00:15:59,333 --> 00:16:01,233
I DON'T WORRY ABOUT SCARS AT

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00:16:01,233 --> 00:16:03,533
THIS POINT.

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00:16:03,533 --> 00:16:05,100
I REALLY THOUGHT THE SURGERY WAS

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JUST GONNA BE LIKE A MAGIC

441
00:16:06,400 --> 00:16:07,567
PILL.

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00:16:07,567 --> 00:16:08,667
I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA HAVE THE

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00:16:08,667 --> 00:16:09,767
SURGERY, THE WEIGHT WAS GONNA

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FALL OFF, IT WAS ALL GONNA BE

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00:16:10,833 --> 00:16:11,333
HUNKY DORY.

446
00:16:11,333 --> 00:16:12,333
I WAS GONNA BE THIS HAPPY,

447
00:16:12,333 --> 00:16:14,233
WONDERFUL, GO-LUCKY PERSON.

448
00:16:19,533 --> 00:16:20,433
THE SURGERY IS NOT GONNA GIVE

449
00:16:20,433 --> 00:16:22,733
YOU HAPPINESS.

450
00:16:22,733 --> 00:16:23,767
YOU HAVE TO GET THE HAPPINESS

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00:16:23,767 --> 00:16:25,767
FROM YOURSELF.

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00:16:31,300 --> 00:16:32,733
>> I KNEW WHAT A BLESSING THIS

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00:16:32,733 --> 00:16:34,933
SURGERY WAS.

454
00:16:35,100 --> 00:16:38,067
I HAD A SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE.

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00:16:38,067 --> 00:16:39,700
AND I WANTED TO MAKE SURE THAT

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00:16:39,700 --> 00:16:41,433
THE OTHER PEOPLE OUT THERE LIKE

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00:16:41,433 --> 00:16:43,100
ME HAD THE SAME OPPORTUNITY I

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HAD.

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00:16:57,800 --> 00:16:58,833
YOU'RE NOT GONNA HAVE THIS

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00:16:58,833 --> 00:17:00,100
SURGERY AND YOU'RE GONNA BE

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00:17:00,100 --> 00:17:00,867
SKINNY TOMORROW.

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00:17:00,867 --> 00:17:02,233
IT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN LIKE THAT.

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00:17:02,233 --> 00:17:03,633
IT'S HARD. IT'S HARD.

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00:17:03,633 --> 00:17:05,567
IT'S HARD TO DO IT ON YOUR OWN.

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I WOULD HIT, LIKE, UPS AND

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00:17:07,467 --> 00:17:10,233
DOWNS.

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00:17:10,233 --> 00:17:13,533
BUT LOOKING BACK ON IT NOW, ALL

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00:17:13,533 --> 00:17:14,333
WORTH IT.

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00:17:14,333 --> 00:17:16,233
EVERY BIT OF IT WORTH IT.

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00:17:21,167 --> 00:17:21,867
EXCUSE ME.

471
00:17:21,867 --> 00:17:23,500
I KNEW RIGHT AWAY THAT I WANTED

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00:17:23,500 --> 00:17:24,967
TO WORK FOR DR. NOWZARADAN.

473
00:17:24,967 --> 00:17:26,333
I KNEW I WANTED TO CHANGE

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00:17:26,333 --> 00:17:27,233
PEOPLE'S LIVES.

475
00:17:27,233 --> 00:17:28,667
>> THIS IS BILLIE, MELISSA.

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00:17:28,667 --> 00:17:30,067
I'M BARBARA, BILLIE'S MOM.

477
00:17:30,067 --> 00:17:31,400
>> IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU.

478
00:17:31,400 --> 00:17:33,067
>> HI, BILLIE. NICE TO MEET YOU.

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00:17:33,067 --> 00:17:37,233
I WAS 653 POUNDS.

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00:17:37,233 --> 00:17:39,100
THIS IS ACTUALLY TWO DAYS BEFORE

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00:17:39,100 --> 00:17:41,067
THE SURGERY.

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00:17:41,067 --> 00:17:42,300
YOU'RE ONLY 18.

483
00:17:42,300 --> 00:17:44,533
YOU HAVE A WHOLE LIFE AHEAD OF

484
00:17:44,533 --> 00:17:46,400
YOU.

485
00:17:46,400 --> 00:17:47,800
I DO A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING,

486
00:17:47,800 --> 00:17:51,667
HELPING OTHER PATIENTS.

487
00:17:51,667 --> 00:17:53,433
HI. HOW ARE YOU DOING?

488
00:17:53,600 --> 00:17:55,733
>> OH, I'M OKAY. A LITTLE SORE.

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00:17:55,733 --> 00:17:57,900
>> A LITTLE SORE? JUST A LITTLE?

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00:17:58,067 --> 00:18:00,133
I TALK TO THEM ABOUT THEIR

491
00:18:00,133 --> 00:18:02,167
SURGERIES BEFORE AND AFTER.

492
00:18:02,167 --> 00:18:04,833
YOUR POUCH IS THIS BIG, AND YOU

493
00:18:04,833 --> 00:18:07,233
STICK THIS MUCH LETTUCE IN IT,

494
00:18:07,233 --> 00:18:08,433
THEN YOU ONLY HAVE THAT MUCH

495
00:18:08,433 --> 00:18:10,100
ROOM FOR PROTEIN.

496
00:18:10,100 --> 00:18:11,833
I WAKE UP EVERY DAY KNOWING I

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00:18:11,833 --> 00:18:12,633
LOVE MY JOB.

498
00:18:12,633 --> 00:18:14,567
CONGRATULATIONS.

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00:18:14,567 --> 00:18:16,600
I TRULY BELIEVE THIS IS WHAT I

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WAS MEANT TO DO.

501
00:18:19,367 --> 00:18:20,567
HI, EVERYBODY.

502
00:18:20,567 --> 00:18:22,567
MY NAME IS MELISSA MORRIS.

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00:18:22,567 --> 00:18:25,233
DR. NOWZARADAN DID MY SURGERY.

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THIS IS MY "BEFORE" PICTURE.

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00:18:31,667 --> 00:18:33,667
IF GROCERY SHOPPING TOOK YOU A

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HALF AN HOUR BEFORE SURGERY,

507
00:18:35,400 --> 00:18:37,100
IT'S GONNA TAKE YOU AN HOUR

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00:18:37,100 --> 00:18:39,367
AFTER SURGERY, BECAUSE YOU NEED

509
00:18:39,367 --> 00:18:41,167
TO READ THE LABELS.

510
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YOU'RE GONNA HAVE A LOT OF

511
00:18:44,800 --> 00:18:48,400
PROBLEMS IF YOU KEEP THINKING,

512
00:18:48,400 --> 00:18:49,500
"WE CAN'T HAVE."

513
00:18:49,500 --> 00:18:51,333
YOU'VE GOT TO TURN THAT SWITCH

514
00:18:51,333 --> 00:18:53,200
IN YOUR MIND.

515
00:18:53,200 --> 00:18:55,633
THIS IS MY SKIRT.

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FOUR YARDS OF MATERIAL.

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THERE IS NOT ONE PIECE OF

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00:19:00,267 --> 00:19:03,800
CHICKEN, NOT ONE POTATO CHIP

519
00:19:03,800 --> 00:19:08,300
THAT FEELS AS GOOD...

520
00:19:08,300 --> 00:19:08,867
AS THIS DOES.

521
00:19:08,867 --> 00:19:10,833
>> WOW.

522
00:19:10,833 --> 00:19:11,933
>> THANK YOU.

523
00:19:11,933 --> 00:19:12,500
>> WHOO!

524
00:19:12,500 --> 00:19:14,567
>> I CAN'T BELIEVE NOW THAT I'M

525
00:19:14,567 --> 00:19:15,933
DOING WHAT I DO.

526
00:19:15,933 --> 00:19:17,200
I GET THIS NATURAL HIGH.

527
00:19:17,200 --> 00:19:18,700
I CAN FEEL IT RIGHT HERE IN MY

528
00:19:18,700 --> 00:19:20,967
CHEST, AND IT JUST...

529
00:19:20,967 --> 00:19:23,800
I MEAN, I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW

530
00:19:23,800 --> 00:19:25,433
BLESSED I AM.

531
00:19:25,600 --> 00:19:26,867
>> TWO AND A HALF YEARS AGO, I

532
00:19:26,867 --> 00:19:28,100
WOULD HAVE NEVER THOUGHT SHE

533
00:19:28,100 --> 00:19:29,067
WOULD BE DOING THIS.

534
00:19:29,067 --> 00:19:29,900
EVER.

535
00:19:30,067 --> 00:19:32,967
IT'S JUST LIKE, WOW.

536
00:19:32,967 --> 00:19:34,067
>> I FEEL EXCITED.

537
00:19:34,067 --> 00:19:35,600
IF MY FEET DIDN'T HURT, I'D WANT

538
00:19:35,600 --> 00:19:37,300
TO DO SOMETHING.

539
00:19:37,300 --> 00:19:39,100
>> GOT A WHOLE LOT OF CHANGES IN

540
00:19:39,100 --> 00:19:40,833
JUST A LITTLE SHORT TIME FRAME.

541
00:19:40,833 --> 00:19:41,867
SEE YOU LATER.

542
00:19:41,867 --> 00:19:43,833
I MEAN, ONE DAY WE JUST KIND OF

543
00:19:43,833 --> 00:19:45,633
BOTH LOOKED UP AND WAS LIKE,

544
00:19:45,633 --> 00:19:49,867
"GOD, YOU'RE JUST SUPER THIN."

545
00:19:52,233 --> 00:19:54,067
>> [ SIGHS ]

546
00:19:54,067 --> 00:19:56,800
IT SAYS SIZE 42.

547
00:19:56,967 --> 00:19:57,500
WATCH THIS.

548
00:19:57,500 --> 00:20:02,233
I HAVE TO ZIP THE ZIPPER FIRST.

549
00:20:02,233 --> 00:20:05,667
THIS BEAUTIFUL DRESS IS MY PROM

550
00:20:05,667 --> 00:20:08,533
DRESS.

551
00:20:08,533 --> 00:20:09,667
IT'S A LITTLE BIG.

552
00:20:09,667 --> 00:20:11,267
WHEN I LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE

553
00:20:11,267 --> 00:20:13,600
MIRROR, I AM SURPRISED BECAUSE I

554
00:20:13,600 --> 00:20:15,667
CAN'T BELIEVE HOW THIN I AM.

555
00:20:15,667 --> 00:20:18,100
I'VE NEVER BEEN THIS SIZE.

556
00:20:18,100 --> 00:20:20,400
NEVER IN MY LIFE.

557
00:20:20,400 --> 00:20:22,433
I'M REALLY OKAY IN CLOTHING.

558
00:20:22,433 --> 00:20:24,267
IT'S OUT OF CLOTHING THAT

559
00:20:24,267 --> 00:20:26,700
BOTHERS ME.

560
00:20:26,700 --> 00:20:30,600
LIKE, THIS BOTHERS ME.

561
00:20:30,600 --> 00:20:31,333
ALL THIS.

562
00:20:31,333 --> 00:20:34,367
AND THEN THERE'S LOTS AND LOTS

563
00:20:34,367 --> 00:20:38,700
OF SKIN.

564
00:20:38,700 --> 00:20:41,000
MENTALLY, I'M GOING THROUGH A

565
00:20:41,000 --> 00:20:43,400
STAGE WHERE NOW I FINALLY HAVE

566
00:20:43,400 --> 00:20:45,400
EVERYTHING I WANTED, SO WHY

567
00:20:45,400 --> 00:20:47,200
DON'T I FEEL LIKE I HAVE

568
00:20:47,200 --> 00:20:49,100
EVERYTHING I WANTED?

569
00:20:55,533 --> 00:20:57,833
A PART OF ME STILL IS AFRAID OF

570
00:20:57,833 --> 00:20:59,333
GETTING FAT.

571
00:20:59,500 --> 00:21:01,933
I'M TERRIFIED OF GAINING WEIGHT.

572
00:21:01,933 --> 00:21:03,900
I'M TERRIFIED OF BEING FAT

573
00:21:03,900 --> 00:21:04,433
AGAIN.

574
00:21:04,433 --> 00:21:06,167
[ Voice breaking ] I KNOW IT'S

575
00:21:06,167 --> 00:21:07,767
STUPID, AND I KNOW EVERYBODY

576
00:21:07,767 --> 00:21:09,067
SEES ME AS SKINNY, BUT

577
00:21:09,067 --> 00:21:11,800
I REMEMBER BEING FAT.

578
00:21:16,767 --> 00:21:20,200
>> YOU WEIGHED 157 POUNDS TODAY.

579
00:21:20,200 --> 00:21:22,600
RIGHT NOW, YOU'RE PROBABLY FIVE,

580
00:21:22,600 --> 00:21:24,367
10 POUNDS UNDERWEIGHT.

581
00:21:24,367 --> 00:21:26,667
YOUR BODY MASS NEEDS TO

582
00:21:26,667 --> 00:21:27,833
INCREASE.

583
00:21:27,833 --> 00:21:30,600
MAKE SURE THAT YOU STICK WITH

584
00:21:30,600 --> 00:21:31,400
THE PROTEIN.

585
00:21:31,400 --> 00:21:33,100
>> OKAY.

586
00:21:40,367 --> 00:21:43,333
OH, MY GOSH.

587
00:21:43,333 --> 00:21:44,833
NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD SEE THE

588
00:21:44,833 --> 00:21:49,433
DAY THAT I COULD GET OUT OF A

589
00:21:49,433 --> 00:21:54,333
CAR WITH THIS MUCH SPACE.

590
00:21:54,333 --> 00:21:58,067
I CAN'T EXPLAIN WHAT IT'S LIKE

591
00:21:58,067 --> 00:21:59,300
TO HAVE A LIFE.

592
00:21:59,300 --> 00:22:01,700
BEFORE, SOMEONE HAD TO TAKE CARE

593
00:22:01,700 --> 00:22:03,300
OF ME ALL THE TIME.

594
00:22:03,300 --> 00:22:05,833
BEFORE MY SURGERY, CHRIS WAS MY

595
00:22:05,833 --> 00:22:08,100
CARETAKER.

596
00:22:08,100 --> 00:22:10,300
>> OUR RELATIONSHIP STARTED OUT

597
00:22:10,300 --> 00:22:12,233
LIKE ANY OTHER RELATIONSHIP

598
00:22:12,233 --> 00:22:12,933
DOES.

599
00:22:12,933 --> 00:22:15,233
AT SOME POINT, I BECAME HER

600
00:22:15,233 --> 00:22:16,300
CARETAKER.

601
00:22:16,300 --> 00:22:17,733
>> A CARETAKER -- IS THAT WHAT

602
00:22:17,733 --> 00:22:18,800
YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE?

603
00:22:18,800 --> 00:22:19,800
>> IT'S WHAT I WAS.

604
00:22:19,800 --> 00:22:20,967
IT'S NOT WHAT I THOUGHT.

605
00:22:20,967 --> 00:22:21,833
IT'S WHAT I WAS.

606
00:22:21,833 --> 00:22:23,733
>> HE MARRIED ME BECAUSE HE FELT

607
00:22:23,733 --> 00:22:25,500
LIKE IT WAS SOMETHING THAT HE

608
00:22:25,500 --> 00:22:27,767
HAD TO DO.

609
00:22:27,767 --> 00:22:29,467
AND I MARRIED HIM BECAUSE I

610
00:22:29,467 --> 00:22:31,067
DIDN'T WANT TO BE ALONE.

611
00:22:31,067 --> 00:22:33,233
WE WERE NEVER HUSBAND AND WIFE.

612
00:22:33,233 --> 00:22:35,933
ONCE THE BIG AMOUNTS OF WEIGHT

613
00:22:35,933 --> 00:22:38,233
CAME OFF, I WANTED TO DO THINGS

614
00:22:38,233 --> 00:22:39,133
FOR MYSELF.

615
00:22:39,133 --> 00:22:41,200
>> IT WAS HARD FOR ME TO LET GO

616
00:22:41,200 --> 00:22:42,500
OF BEING HER CARETAKER.

617
00:22:42,500 --> 00:22:43,433
>> IT WAS HARD.

618
00:22:43,433 --> 00:22:44,400
WE FOUGHT A LOT.

619
00:22:44,400 --> 00:22:45,933
>> I MEAN, IT WAS JUST -- WE

620
00:22:45,933 --> 00:22:47,800
WERE DONE.

621
00:22:47,800 --> 00:22:49,933
>> THING THAT CHANGED US, HE

622
00:22:49,933 --> 00:22:52,300
CALLED ME FROM WORK AND ASKED ME

623
00:22:52,300 --> 00:22:53,667
ON A DATE, AND THEN WE

624
00:22:53,667 --> 00:22:54,433
STARTED --

625
00:22:54,433 --> 00:22:56,433
>> JUST TALKING MORE.

626
00:22:56,433 --> 00:22:58,633
>> I'M A PERSON WHO NEEDS TO BE

627
00:22:58,633 --> 00:22:59,533
TALKED TO.

628
00:22:59,533 --> 00:23:01,500
THE LOVE NOW HAS JUST BEEN

629
00:23:01,500 --> 00:23:02,467
RECENT.

630
00:23:02,467 --> 00:23:05,467
>> NOW OUR ROLE IS A HUSBAND AND

631
00:23:05,467 --> 00:23:07,567
A WIFE, A REAL HUSBAND AND WIFE.

632
00:23:12,533 --> 00:23:13,900
>> AFTER EVERYTHING THAT I HAD

633
00:23:13,900 --> 00:23:15,267
BEEN THROUGH AND EVERYTHING I

634
00:23:15,267 --> 00:23:16,433
HAD LOST, THERE WAS STILL

635
00:23:16,433 --> 00:23:17,867
SOMETHING MISSING.

636
00:23:18,067 --> 00:23:19,200
THERE WAS SOMETHING I WANTED

637
00:23:19,200 --> 00:23:21,100
EVEN MORE THAN WEIGHT LOSS.

638
00:23:34,867 --> 00:23:35,700
[ BOTH LAUGH ]

639
00:23:35,700 --> 00:23:37,300
CHRIS AND I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO

640
00:23:37,300 --> 00:23:39,267
GET PREGNANT FOR...

641
00:23:39,267 --> 00:23:40,933
>> 12 YEARS.

642
00:23:40,933 --> 00:23:43,667
>> 12 YEARS.

643
00:23:43,667 --> 00:23:45,567
I TOOK A PREGNANCY TEST, AND IT

644
00:23:45,567 --> 00:23:46,933
CAME BACK POSITIVE.

645
00:23:46,933 --> 00:23:48,800
>> AND THERE, SHE'S PREGNANT.

646
00:23:48,800 --> 00:23:50,767
>> I'M SO EXCITED, I CAN BARELY

647
00:23:50,767 --> 00:23:51,767
STAND MYSELF.

648
00:23:51,767 --> 00:23:53,967
>> TWINS, TWINS, TWINS.

649
00:23:53,967 --> 00:23:55,867
I FEEL SO BLESSED.

650
00:23:59,200 --> 00:24:00,933
I WOULD HAVE NEVER GOT PREGNANT

651
00:24:00,933 --> 00:24:02,367
IF I HADN'T HAD THE BYPASS

652
00:24:02,367 --> 00:24:03,700
SURGERY AND LOST THE WEIGHT.

653
00:24:03,700 --> 00:24:05,133
I WOULD HAVE NEVER HAVE GOTTEN.

654
00:24:05,133 --> 00:24:06,567
AND IF I HAD GOTTEN PREGNANT, I

655
00:24:06,567 --> 00:24:08,467
WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO CARRY IT.

656
00:24:15,800 --> 00:24:17,600
>> LOOK, THAT'S OUR BABY RIGHT

657
00:24:17,600 --> 00:24:18,067
NOW.

658
00:24:18,067 --> 00:24:19,933
>> IT WILL BE EVEN CUTER WHEN IT

659
00:24:19,933 --> 00:24:21,100
HAS A LITTLE HEAD.

660
00:24:21,100 --> 00:24:22,767
>> HAS A LITTLE HEAD AND HANDS

661
00:24:22,767 --> 00:24:23,700
AND FEET.

662
00:24:23,700 --> 00:24:24,500
>> MOM.

663
00:24:24,500 --> 00:24:25,400
>> What?

664
00:24:25,400 --> 00:24:27,067
>> THEY WERE TWINS.

665
00:24:27,067 --> 00:24:27,967
>> All right.

666
00:24:27,967 --> 00:24:31,567
[ BOTH LAUGH ]

667
00:24:31,567 --> 00:24:33,100
>> OKAY. IT WASN'T TWINS.

668
00:24:33,100 --> 00:24:34,833
I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S TWINS OR

669
00:24:34,833 --> 00:24:35,300
NOT.

670
00:24:35,300 --> 00:24:38,233
THEY WEREN'T BIG ENOUGH TO SEE.

671
00:24:38,233 --> 00:24:39,700
THE BABY'S HEALTH IS WAY MORE

672
00:24:39,700 --> 00:24:41,300
IMPORTANT THAN MY HEALTH AT THIS

673
00:24:41,300 --> 00:24:42,767
POINT.

674
00:24:42,767 --> 00:24:44,500
I WILL ADD A LITTLE BIT OF

675
00:24:44,500 --> 00:24:46,600
RED MEAT TO MY DIET NOW, BUT I'M

676
00:24:46,600 --> 00:24:48,467
NOT GONNA GO CRAZY ON POTATO

677
00:24:48,467 --> 00:24:51,300
CHIPS AND BREAD AND PASTA.

678
00:24:51,300 --> 00:24:52,300
CHRIS.

679
00:24:52,300 --> 00:24:53,467
>> YEAH?

680
00:24:53,467 --> 00:24:55,133
>> YOU DON'T NEED ANY OF THOSE.

681
00:24:55,133 --> 00:24:56,800
>> IT'S JUST ONE FREAKING CANDY

682
00:24:56,800 --> 00:24:57,267
CANE.

683
00:24:57,267 --> 00:24:58,967
>> ONE IS GONNA LEAD TO ONE MORE

684
00:24:58,967 --> 00:25:00,233
POUND, AND ONE MORE POUND IS

685
00:25:00,233 --> 00:25:01,500
GONNA LEAD TO YOU HAVING THE

686
00:25:01,500 --> 00:25:05,967
SURGERY.

687
00:25:05,967 --> 00:25:07,167
DO I NEED ANYTHING ELSE?

688
00:25:07,333 --> 00:25:08,767
>> NO. YOU JUST NEED TO COME ON.

689
00:25:08,767 --> 00:25:11,900
LET'S GO.

690
00:25:12,067 --> 00:25:13,967
>> [ SHUDDERS ]

691
00:25:19,467 --> 00:25:21,067
IN TWO WEEKS, WE DID ANOTHER

692
00:25:21,067 --> 00:25:22,667
ULTRASOUND, AND THEY FINALLY

693
00:25:22,667 --> 00:25:24,433
SEEN THE BABY, BUT THERE WAS NO

694
00:25:24,433 --> 00:25:28,100
HEARTBEAT.

695
00:25:28,100 --> 00:25:33,200
SO TODAY WE ARE GOING TO THE

696
00:25:33,200 --> 00:25:35,300
HOSPITAL TO HAVE A DandC.

697
00:25:38,067 --> 00:25:39,967
>> I KNOW.

698
00:25:46,633 --> 00:25:48,133
>> IT FELT LIKE MY WHOLE WORLD

699
00:25:48,133 --> 00:25:49,133
WAS FALLING APART.

700
00:25:49,133 --> 00:25:50,533
>> THE FACT THAT WE HAD BEEN

701
00:25:50,533 --> 00:25:52,133
TRYING FOR SO LONG AND THEN JUST

702
00:25:52,133 --> 00:25:56,333
TO HAVE IT TAKEN AWAY, IT WAS

703
00:25:56,333 --> 00:25:57,767
LIKE SOMEBODY JUST BALLED UP

704
00:25:57,767 --> 00:25:59,300
THEIR FIST AND JUST PUNCHED ME

705
00:25:59,300 --> 00:26:02,633
IN THE GUT.

706
00:26:02,633 --> 00:26:04,067
>> TAKE EVERYTHING OFF.

707
00:26:04,067 --> 00:26:05,733
EVERYTHING BACK INTO THE BAG.

708
00:26:05,733 --> 00:26:06,900
>> [ Voice breaking ] THIS IS

709
00:26:06,900 --> 00:26:13,433
NOT WHAT I WANT TO BE DOING.

710
00:26:13,433 --> 00:26:14,200
>> READY TO GO?

711
00:26:14,200 --> 00:26:17,067
>> NO, NOT REALLY.

712
00:26:17,067 --> 00:26:22,300
>> YOU'RE GONNA DO ALL RIGHT.

713
00:26:22,300 --> 00:26:23,600
>> THERE'S NOT GONNA BE ONE?

714
00:26:23,767 --> 00:26:24,233
>> NO.

715
00:26:24,233 --> 00:26:24,867
>> OKAY.

716
00:26:24,867 --> 00:26:26,633
THAT'S ALL I NEEDED TO HEAR FROM

717
00:26:26,633 --> 00:26:27,267
YOU.

718
00:26:27,267 --> 00:26:29,833
IT'S THE HARDEST THING I'VE EVER

719
00:26:29,833 --> 00:26:31,833
DID IN MY LIFE.

720
00:26:38,833 --> 00:26:41,300
>> HEY.

721
00:26:41,300 --> 00:26:41,733
YOU ALL RIGHT?

722
00:26:41,733 --> 00:26:43,200
>> THAT WAS REALLY, REALLY

723
00:26:43,200 --> 00:26:43,733
QUICK.

724
00:26:43,733 --> 00:26:48,067
>> YEAH?

725
00:26:48,067 --> 00:26:49,567
>> PLEASE, CAN WE JUST GET IN

726
00:26:49,567 --> 00:26:51,467
THE CAR?

727
00:27:00,667 --> 00:27:01,633
[ SOBS ]

728
00:27:01,633 --> 00:27:03,600
>> WE'RE ALMOST HOME.

729
00:27:03,600 --> 00:27:06,300
WE'LL BE HOME IN LESS THAN FIVE

730
00:27:06,300 --> 00:27:09,333
MINUTES, OKAY?

731
00:27:09,333 --> 00:27:13,067
>> [ SHOUTS ]

732
00:27:13,067 --> 00:27:14,067
PLEASE LET ME --

733
00:27:14,067 --> 00:27:15,167
>> WE'RE ALMOST --

734
00:27:15,167 --> 00:27:16,833
>> PLEASE LET ME OUT OF HERE.

735
00:27:16,833 --> 00:27:18,300
I CAN'T. I CAN'T TAKE IT.

736
00:27:18,300 --> 00:27:19,900
>> YOU'VE GOT TO BE PATIENT,

737
00:27:19,900 --> 00:27:20,400
OKAY?

738
00:27:20,400 --> 00:27:23,067
>> [ SOBS ]

739
00:27:23,067 --> 00:27:26,200
PLEASE, CHRIS. PLEASE.

740
00:27:26,200 --> 00:27:29,200
>> GO LAY IN BED.

741
00:27:29,200 --> 00:27:32,800
>> [ SOBS ]

742
00:27:32,800 --> 00:27:34,633
I WAS GOING THROUGH THIS LOSS,

743
00:27:34,633 --> 00:27:36,467
AND I FELT LIKE I WAS DOING IT

744
00:27:36,467 --> 00:27:38,200
ALONE.

745
00:27:38,200 --> 00:27:40,200
AND WHEN YOU WANT SOMETHING SO

746
00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:43,067
BAD, SO, SO, SO BAD...

747
00:27:43,067 --> 00:27:45,300
OH, GOD!

748
00:27:45,300 --> 00:27:47,200
...IT'S LIKE THE WORST HURT YOU

749
00:27:47,200 --> 00:27:50,833
EVER CAN IMAGINE.

750
00:27:50,833 --> 00:27:52,733
REALLY HARD.

751
00:28:03,833 --> 00:28:06,067
I WANT A TWO-PIECE, BUT NOT NO

752
00:28:06,067 --> 00:28:08,167
ITSY BITSY TWO PIECE.

753
00:28:08,167 --> 00:28:10,567
I WANT A FULL TWO-PIECE...

754
00:28:22,733 --> 00:28:24,267
SO, THE DOCTOR SAID I COULD

755
00:28:24,267 --> 00:28:25,400
STILL GET PREGNANT.

756
00:28:25,400 --> 00:28:28,367
AND MAN, WE TRIED REALLY HARD

757
00:28:28,367 --> 00:28:31,100
FOR A GOOD SOLID THREE MONTHS,

758
00:28:31,100 --> 00:28:34,300
MAYBE FOUR.

759
00:28:34,300 --> 00:28:35,533
THEN WE STOPPED TRYING

760
00:28:35,533 --> 00:28:38,600
ALTOGETHER.

761
00:28:38,600 --> 00:28:39,567
HOW ABOUT THIS ONE?

762
00:28:39,567 --> 00:28:41,067
DON'T I HAVE THE BODY FOR THAT?

763
00:28:41,067 --> 00:28:42,300
DON'T YOU THINK THE WRINKLES

764
00:28:42,300 --> 00:28:43,633
WILL LOOK CUTE IN THAT?

765
00:28:43,633 --> 00:28:47,067
>> THEY'RE ALL THE ONE-PIECE.

766
00:28:47,067 --> 00:28:47,633
>> MNH.

767
00:28:47,633 --> 00:28:49,400
I'M NOT A BIG FAN OF ONE-PIECES.

768
00:28:49,400 --> 00:28:53,600
I WANT TWO PIECES.

769
00:28:53,600 --> 00:28:55,500
[ SNIFFLES ]

770
00:28:59,733 --> 00:29:01,700
[ SNIFFLES ]

771
00:29:03,233 --> 00:29:05,133
>> [ CHUCKLES ]

772
00:29:07,933 --> 00:29:09,567
>> I'M NOT A SUCCESS STORY YET.

773
00:29:09,567 --> 00:29:11,367
I'M STILL WORKING IT.

774
00:29:11,367 --> 00:29:12,833
EVERY DAY, I WORK IT.

775
00:29:12,833 --> 00:29:17,667
I CAN'T TALK TO CHRIS ABOUT IT.

776
00:29:17,667 --> 00:29:19,533
WITH ALL MY HEART, I LOVE CHRIS.

777
00:29:19,533 --> 00:29:22,333
BUT THINGS HAVE DEFINITELY TAKEN

778
00:29:22,333 --> 00:29:26,767
A TURN FOR THE WORSE.

779
00:29:26,767 --> 00:29:30,400
I JUST FOUND OUT WHEN I WAS IN

780
00:29:30,400 --> 00:29:32,667
THE HOSPITAL HAVING MY

781
00:29:32,667 --> 00:29:35,567
GASTRIC-BYPASS SURGERY, THINKING

782
00:29:35,567 --> 00:29:37,967
I WAS GONNA DIE, ALMOST HOPING I

783
00:29:37,967 --> 00:29:40,333
WAS GONNA DIE, CHRIS WAS TALKING

784
00:29:40,333 --> 00:29:42,633
TO ANOTHER LADY, SETTING UP THIS

785
00:29:42,633 --> 00:29:46,967
PLAN TO MEET...TO HAVE SEX.

786
00:29:53,433 --> 00:29:55,133
I SHOULD HAVE NEVER LET MYSELF

787
00:29:55,133 --> 00:29:59,300
GET THAT BIG.

788
00:29:59,300 --> 00:30:03,733
CHRIS, FOR YEARS NOW, HAS BEEN

789
00:30:03,733 --> 00:30:04,967
TALKING TO WOMEN ON THE

790
00:30:04,967 --> 00:30:06,567
INTERNET, TALKING TO THEM ON THE

791
00:30:06,567 --> 00:30:10,667
PHONE, EXCHANGING E-MAILS,

792
00:30:10,667 --> 00:30:13,267
PHOTOS.

793
00:30:13,267 --> 00:30:15,800
I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE.

794
00:30:15,800 --> 00:30:17,833
I WOULD REALLY, REALLY RATHER

795
00:30:17,833 --> 00:30:19,833
CHRIS COME TO ME AND SAY, "I

796
00:30:19,833 --> 00:30:21,867
WANT SOMETHING ELSE," THAN TO

797
00:30:21,867 --> 00:30:23,433
START CHEATING ON ME.

798
00:30:23,433 --> 00:30:25,367
WHY DO THAT? WHY DO THAT?

799
00:30:25,367 --> 00:30:27,367
WHY STAY AND DO IT?

800
00:30:27,367 --> 00:30:29,733
WHY NOT JUST SAY, "I CAN'T BE IN

801
00:30:29,733 --> 00:30:31,700
THIS RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU

802
00:30:31,700 --> 00:30:32,100
ANYMORE"?

803
00:30:37,167 --> 00:30:38,700
>> I WAS ABOUT TO GIVE UP HOPE

804
00:30:38,700 --> 00:30:40,067
WHEN MY WORLD TURNED UPSIDE

805
00:30:40,067 --> 00:30:41,667
DOWN.

806
00:30:41,833 --> 00:30:43,267
YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT LIFE'S GONNA

807
00:30:43,267 --> 00:30:45,167
BRING.

808
00:31:00,533 --> 00:31:03,867
I'M VERY AFRAID OF BAD NEWS.

809
00:31:03,867 --> 00:31:06,767
I WANT THIS SO BAD.

810
00:31:13,700 --> 00:31:14,833
[ ELEVATOR BELL DINGS ]

811
00:31:14,833 --> 00:31:15,800
>> HI. HOW ARE YOU?

812
00:31:15,800 --> 00:31:17,067
>> I'M FINE. HOW ARE YOU?

813
00:31:17,067 --> 00:31:17,633
>> GOOD.

814
00:31:17,633 --> 00:31:19,267
WHAT TIME IS YOUR APPOINTMENT?

815
00:31:19,267 --> 00:31:19,867
>> 9:00.

816
00:31:19,867 --> 00:31:20,467
>> 9:00?

817
00:31:20,467 --> 00:31:22,067
>> MY CONCERNS AND MY WORRIES

818
00:31:22,067 --> 00:31:23,933
ARE GONNA BE THE SAME THING AS

819
00:31:23,933 --> 00:31:26,667
LAST TIME -- NO HEARTBEAT OR

820
00:31:26,667 --> 00:31:29,567
SOMETHING WRONG.

821
00:31:29,567 --> 00:31:30,633
>> I'M NERVOUS.

822
00:31:30,633 --> 00:31:32,467
LAST TIME WAS A HUGE LET-DOWN.

823
00:31:32,467 --> 00:31:34,200
HOPEFULLY THIS WILL WORK OUT

824
00:31:34,200 --> 00:31:35,367
LIKE IT'S SUPPOSED TO.

825
00:31:35,367 --> 00:31:36,267
>> GOOD MORNING.

826
00:31:36,267 --> 00:31:38,333
>> YES, IT SAYS 211.

827
00:31:38,500 --> 00:31:40,500
>> NOPE, THAT'S ACTUALLY 206.

828
00:31:40,500 --> 00:31:43,467
>> 206.

829
00:31:43,467 --> 00:31:44,367
>> LOTS OF PRESSURE.

830
00:31:44,533 --> 00:31:48,300
COLD, COLD GEL, OKAY?

831
00:31:48,300 --> 00:31:50,067
AND THERE'S YOUR KID.

832
00:31:50,067 --> 00:31:51,200
AND THERE'S THE HEARTBEAT.

833
00:31:51,200 --> 00:31:52,533
THAT FLICKER, FLICKER, FLICKER,

834
00:31:52,533 --> 00:31:55,233
FLICKER, FLICKER IS YOUR KIDDO.

835
00:31:55,233 --> 00:31:56,967
>> THERE IS A HEARTBEAT.

836
00:31:56,967 --> 00:31:57,967
[ SNIFFLES ]

837
00:31:57,967 --> 00:32:01,200
YAY.

838
00:32:01,200 --> 00:32:02,200
OH, MY GOSH.

839
00:32:02,200 --> 00:32:03,433
YOU ARE MY FAVORITE PERSON RIGHT

840
00:32:03,433 --> 00:32:04,267
NOW, I SWEAR.

841
00:32:04,267 --> 00:32:05,733
>> I'M ACTUALLY GONNA BE A

842
00:32:05,733 --> 00:32:06,867
FATHER.

843
00:32:06,867 --> 00:32:10,400
>> [ CHUCKLES ] CONGRATULATIONS.

844
00:32:10,400 --> 00:32:11,200
IT HAD A HEARTBEAT.

845
00:32:11,200 --> 00:32:12,867
>> I KNOW. I'M HAPPY.

846
00:32:12,867 --> 00:32:14,233
>> ARE YOU SURE?

847
00:32:14,233 --> 00:32:15,767
>> YEAH.

848
00:32:15,933 --> 00:32:17,433
>> BECAUSE OF YOUR BYPASS AND

849
00:32:17,433 --> 00:32:19,067
BECAUSE OF YOUR PREGNANCY, THE

850
00:32:19,067 --> 00:32:20,500
REALLY BEST THING TO DO IS TO

851
00:32:20,500 --> 00:32:22,400
PUT A LITTLE, TINY BIT OF FOOD

852
00:32:22,400 --> 00:32:24,333
IN YOUR STOMACH EVERY HOUR OR

853
00:32:24,333 --> 00:32:25,233
TWO.

854
00:32:25,400 --> 00:32:26,800
>> LET ME SHOW YOU MY

855
00:32:26,800 --> 00:32:28,733
ORIGINAL -- THIS WAS THREE DAYS

856
00:32:28,733 --> 00:32:30,267
BEFORE MY BYPASS.

857
00:32:30,267 --> 00:32:32,367
I STILL DEAL WITH THAT PERSON.

858
00:32:32,367 --> 00:32:34,567
SO WHEN YOU SAY EAT EVERY HOUR,

859
00:32:34,567 --> 00:32:35,767
THAT SCARES ME.

860
00:32:35,767 --> 00:32:37,567
>> THAT STRESSES YOU OUT?

861
00:32:37,567 --> 00:32:38,933
YOU'RE A FABULOUS, BEAUTIFUL

862
00:32:38,933 --> 00:32:39,333
LADY.

863
00:32:39,333 --> 00:32:41,067
HERE, TOO.

864
00:32:41,067 --> 00:32:42,433
BUT I UNDERSTAND THE STRESS THAT

865
00:32:42,433 --> 00:32:43,733
YOU CAN GET IN YOUR MIND, SO

866
00:32:43,733 --> 00:32:44,733
WE'LL TRY THAT FIRST.

867
00:32:44,733 --> 00:32:46,067
AND IF THAT DOESN'T WORK, YOU

868
00:32:46,067 --> 00:32:47,967
CAN CALL US.

869
00:32:59,367 --> 00:33:00,667
>> OKAY.

870
00:33:01,267 --> 00:33:02,733
THINK THAT ONE'S READY TO GO.

871
00:33:08,467 --> 00:33:09,467
>> CHRIS?

872
00:33:09,467 --> 00:33:11,333
>> I'M NOT TYING IT THAT TIGHT!

873
00:33:11,333 --> 00:33:12,400
>> KEEP CALLING IT A BABY

874
00:33:12,400 --> 00:33:13,533
SHOWER, BUT I DON'T THINK IT'S A

875
00:33:13,533 --> 00:33:14,167
BABY SHOWER.

876
00:33:14,167 --> 00:33:15,467
I THINK IT'S MORE OF A PARTY, A

877
00:33:15,467 --> 00:33:19,800
CELEBRATION.

878
00:33:19,800 --> 00:33:21,433
FIRST THING MY MOM SAID TO ME.

879
00:33:21,433 --> 00:33:22,467
>> WHAT?

880
00:33:22,467 --> 00:33:24,400
>> "BOY, YOU ARE BIG."

881
00:33:24,400 --> 00:33:26,300
I DON'T THINK SHE WAS TALKING

882
00:33:26,300 --> 00:33:27,400
ABOUT MY BELLY.

883
00:33:27,400 --> 00:33:31,167
I WAS BRACING MYSELF FOR THEM.

884
00:33:31,167 --> 00:33:32,533
>> HI, BEAUTIFUL.

885
00:33:32,533 --> 00:33:33,800
>> HELLO, BABY.

886
00:33:33,800 --> 00:33:35,067
>> BE CAREFUL.

887
00:33:35,067 --> 00:33:36,667
SHE MIGHT KICK YOU.

888
00:33:36,667 --> 00:33:38,067
>> AND IS IT ALLONA?

889
00:33:38,067 --> 00:33:38,867
>> ALLONA.

890
00:33:38,867 --> 00:33:40,767
>> ALLONA. OKAY.

891
00:33:40,767 --> 00:33:42,500
>> IT'S ALMOST SURREAL.

892
00:33:42,500 --> 00:33:44,067
I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE HERE.

893
00:33:44,067 --> 00:33:46,533
I REALLY HONESTLY GAVE UP EVEN

894
00:33:46,533 --> 00:33:47,567
HAVING KIDS.

895
00:33:47,567 --> 00:33:49,067
>> AND TO SEE HOW BIG YOU GOT!

896
00:33:51,633 --> 00:33:53,400
OH, YOU'RE GETTING TO BE PRETTY

897
00:33:53,400 --> 00:33:53,833
BIG.

898
00:33:53,833 --> 00:33:54,900
THIS IS ALL BABY.

899
00:33:54,900 --> 00:33:57,700
IT'LL BE GONE IN NO TIME.

900
00:33:57,867 --> 00:33:59,500
>> WHEN MELISSA COME HOME THIS

901
00:33:59,500 --> 00:34:01,200
TIME AND I SAW HOW MUCH WEIGHT

902
00:34:01,200 --> 00:34:03,500
SHE HAD GAINED, IT WORRIES ME.

903
00:34:03,500 --> 00:34:05,400
IT REALLY WORRIES ME.

904
00:34:05,567 --> 00:34:06,733
I THINK SHE BLAMES A LOT OF

905
00:34:06,733 --> 00:34:07,800
THINGS ON HER PREGNANCY.

906
00:34:07,800 --> 00:34:08,767
I REALLY DO.

907
00:34:08,767 --> 00:34:10,567
I THINK SHE THINKS, "IT'S OKAY

908
00:34:10,567 --> 00:34:12,067
'CAUSE I'M PREGNANT."

909
00:34:12,067 --> 00:34:14,100
>> I CAN FULLY SAY THAT I'M

910
00:34:14,100 --> 00:34:16,300
HEAVIER NOW THAN I WANT TO BE,

911
00:34:16,300 --> 00:34:18,567
AND IT'S BECAUSE I KNOW EXACTLY

912
00:34:18,567 --> 00:34:19,767
WHAT I'M DOING WRONG.

913
00:34:19,767 --> 00:34:23,200
I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT HABITS I

914
00:34:23,200 --> 00:34:25,533
SHOULDN'T BE DOING.

915
00:34:25,533 --> 00:34:27,100
>> WE HAVE BOTH REALLY

916
00:34:27,100 --> 00:34:28,067
REGRESSED.

917
00:34:28,067 --> 00:34:29,333
I MEAN, IT'S HARD.

918
00:34:29,333 --> 00:34:30,667
WE BOTH SLIP BACK INTO OLD

919
00:34:30,667 --> 00:34:32,133
HABITS, EATING OUT, YOU KNOW,

920
00:34:32,133 --> 00:34:33,633
DRINKING SODAS AND THINGS LIKE

921
00:34:33,633 --> 00:34:34,067
THAT.

922
00:34:34,067 --> 00:34:35,633
WE BOTH KNOW WE NEED TO CUT THAT

923
00:34:35,633 --> 00:34:37,267
OUT.

924
00:34:37,267 --> 00:34:38,733
>> SHE WAS SO MUCH MORE ALIVE

925
00:34:38,733 --> 00:34:40,133
WHEN SHE WAS THINNER, SO I'M

926
00:34:40,133 --> 00:34:42,867
HOPING SHE GOES BACK TO THAT AND

927
00:34:42,867 --> 00:34:45,600
ALL THREE CAN LIVE A HEALTHIER

928
00:34:45,600 --> 00:34:47,700
LIFE.

929
00:34:47,700 --> 00:34:48,867
>> EVERY DAY I'M AFRAID

930
00:34:48,867 --> 00:34:50,100
SOMETHING'S GONNA HAPPEN.

931
00:34:50,100 --> 00:34:51,600
EVERY DAY, I'M AFRAID I'M GONNA

932
00:34:51,600 --> 00:34:53,067
HAVE HER AND I'M GONNA GAIN MY

933
00:34:53,067 --> 00:34:54,433
WEIGHT BACK OR I'M GONNA GAIN

934
00:34:54,433 --> 00:34:55,933
TOO MUCH WEIGHT AND NOT BE ABLE

935
00:34:55,933 --> 00:34:56,600
TO LOSE IT.

936
00:34:56,600 --> 00:34:59,467
[ SNIFFLES ] EVERY DAY.

937
00:34:59,467 --> 00:35:01,433
EVERY DAY IS A HARD DAY.

938
00:35:04,733 --> 00:35:08,267
[ MONITOR BEEPING ]

939
00:35:08,267 --> 00:35:09,633
>> IT'S 2:00.

940
00:35:09,633 --> 00:35:12,333
WE'VE BEEN HERE SINCE 6:00 LAST

941
00:35:12,333 --> 00:35:14,233
NIGHT.

942
00:35:18,467 --> 00:35:20,067
>> I'LL BE HONEST WITH YOU.

943
00:35:20,067 --> 00:35:21,767
EVEN UP UNTIL A YEAR AGO, I

944
00:35:21,767 --> 00:35:23,700
STILL DIDN'T THINK I WAS GONNA

945
00:35:23,700 --> 00:35:24,400
BE HERE.

946
00:35:24,400 --> 00:35:26,533
I NEVER THOUGHT I WAS GONNA

947
00:35:26,533 --> 00:35:28,700
GIVE BIRTH TO MY OWN CHILD.

948
00:35:28,700 --> 00:35:30,200
I HAVE DEFINITELY GAINED WAY

949
00:35:30,200 --> 00:35:31,700
MORE WEIGHT THAN I WANTED TO

950
00:35:31,700 --> 00:35:32,833
WITH THIS PREGNANCY.

951
00:35:32,833 --> 00:35:34,567
DR. NOWZARADAN HAS SAID

952
00:35:34,567 --> 00:35:36,900
SOMETHING TO ME ABOUT MY WEIGHT

953
00:35:36,900 --> 00:35:39,200
AND ABOUT "THIS IS HOW BIG THE

954
00:35:39,200 --> 00:35:40,867
BABY IS" AND "THIS IS HOW MUCH

955
00:35:40,867 --> 00:35:42,967
WEIGHT YOU'VE GAINED."

956
00:35:42,967 --> 00:35:44,800
THAT HAS BEEN VERY HARD.

957
00:35:44,800 --> 00:35:46,700
[ GROANS ]

958
00:35:55,067 --> 00:35:56,800
>> I MEAN, LITERALLY, NURSE JUST

959
00:35:56,800 --> 00:35:58,333
WALKED OUT.

960
00:35:58,333 --> 00:35:59,267
>> HI.

961
00:35:59,267 --> 00:36:00,767
>> IS THIS MY BABY?

962
00:36:00,933 --> 00:36:03,633
[ ALL GASPING ]

963
00:36:03,633 --> 00:36:05,633
>> SHE'S SO TINY!

964
00:36:05,800 --> 00:36:09,700
FIVE POUNDS, SEVEN OUNCES.

965
00:36:09,700 --> 00:36:11,200
I WAS SO PROUD.

966
00:36:11,200 --> 00:36:12,533
THAT'S ALL WE EVER TALKED ABOUT.

967
00:36:12,533 --> 00:36:13,533
"I WANT TO HAVE A BABY.

968
00:36:13,533 --> 00:36:14,567
I WANT TO HAVE A BABY."

969
00:36:14,567 --> 00:36:15,600
THAT'S THE ONE THING I'M

970
00:36:15,600 --> 00:36:19,067
PROUDEST OF FOR HER IS GIVING ME

971
00:36:19,067 --> 00:36:23,833
A DAUGHTER.

972
00:36:23,833 --> 00:36:25,400
I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE HOW TINY

973
00:36:25,400 --> 00:36:28,067
SHE IS.

974
00:36:28,067 --> 00:36:30,700
[ MONITOR BEEPING ]

975
00:36:33,933 --> 00:36:36,100
>> I KNOW. OH, YES. OH, YES.

976
00:36:36,100 --> 00:36:38,300
>> MY GOAL, FROM THE BEGINNING,

977
00:36:38,300 --> 00:36:39,467
WAS TO HAVE A CHILD.

978
00:36:39,633 --> 00:36:41,300
BUT NOW THAT I HAVE HER, IT'S,

979
00:36:41,300 --> 00:36:42,900
LIKE, A MILLION TIMES BETTER

980
00:36:42,900 --> 00:36:45,467
THAN THE EXPECTATION THAT I HAD.

981
00:36:45,467 --> 00:36:49,300
>> [ COUGHS, SOBS ]

982
00:36:49,300 --> 00:36:51,333
>> YEAH.

983
00:36:51,333 --> 00:36:54,467
NO FAST FOOD FOR YOU. NO.

984
00:37:09,833 --> 00:37:11,067
>> YOU HAVE TO STAY HERE.

985
00:37:11,067 --> 00:37:12,267
YOU HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL.

986
00:37:12,267 --> 00:37:13,800
GO TO MOMMY.

987
00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:15,500
MWAH. I LOVE YOU.

988
00:37:15,500 --> 00:37:16,367
>> BYE.

989
00:37:16,367 --> 00:37:17,067
>> BYE.

990
00:37:17,067 --> 00:37:18,933
>> MY WHOLE LIFE IS ABOUT BEING

991
00:37:18,933 --> 00:37:19,533
A MOM.

992
00:37:19,533 --> 00:37:21,100
SHE'S MY EVERYTHING.

993
00:37:21,100 --> 00:37:23,067
SHE'S MY WHOLE REASON FOR

994
00:37:23,067 --> 00:37:23,767
LIVING.

995
00:37:23,767 --> 00:37:27,667
I CANNOT IMAGINE WHAT LIFE WOULD

996
00:37:27,667 --> 00:37:29,433
BE LIKE NOT BEING A MOM.

997
00:37:29,433 --> 00:37:33,200
YOU WANT BREAKFAST?

998
00:37:33,200 --> 00:37:34,100
GOOD JOB.

999
00:37:34,100 --> 00:37:36,400
BUT I HAVE FEARED SINCE THE DAY

1000
00:37:36,400 --> 00:37:37,767
SHE WAS BORN OF HER BEING

1001
00:37:37,767 --> 00:37:39,867
OVERWEIGHT.

1002
00:37:39,867 --> 00:37:41,633
I CAN SEE THAT SHE'S GOT THE

1003
00:37:41,633 --> 00:37:43,600
BUILD FOR IT AND SHE'S GOT THE

1004
00:37:43,600 --> 00:37:45,367
GENES FOR BEING OVERWEIGHT.

1005
00:37:45,367 --> 00:37:46,300
NO. MAMA'S HUNGRY.

1006
00:37:46,300 --> 00:37:47,267
PULL YOUR SHIRT UP.

1007
00:37:47,267 --> 00:37:48,533
LET MAMA HAVE A BITE.

1008
00:37:48,533 --> 00:37:50,133
BUT MY NUMBER-ONE PLAN IS TO

1009
00:37:50,133 --> 00:37:51,800
PROTECT MY DAUGHTER, 'CAUSE I

1010
00:37:51,800 --> 00:37:54,700
WANT BETTER FOR HER.

1011
00:37:54,700 --> 00:37:56,167
WANT TO DO RING AROUND THE

1012
00:37:56,167 --> 00:37:56,667
ROSEY?

1013
00:37:56,667 --> 00:38:00,067
[ LAUGHS ]

1014
00:38:00,067 --> 00:38:02,567
I'VE BEEN MARRIED NOW 11 YEARS.

1015
00:38:02,567 --> 00:38:04,533
FIRST 10, WE'RE GOOD.

1016
00:38:04,533 --> 00:38:07,067
LAST ONE'S BEEN A ROUGH ONE.

1017
00:38:07,067 --> 00:38:08,600
IN THE BEGINNING, IT WAS EASY

1018
00:38:08,600 --> 00:38:10,967
BECAUSE I WAS FAT.

1019
00:38:10,967 --> 00:38:14,167
SO I DEDICATED MY LIFE TO HIM.

1020
00:38:14,167 --> 00:38:16,067
BUT NOW IT'S VERY HARD.

1021
00:38:19,167 --> 00:38:20,433
>> ARMS UP. ARMS UP.

1022
00:38:20,433 --> 00:38:22,167
>> CHRIS SAYS HE LOVES ME ALL

1023
00:38:22,167 --> 00:38:24,067
THE TIME, BUT YOU GOT TO MEASURE

1024
00:38:24,067 --> 00:38:25,933
WHAT LOVE REALLY MEANS.

1025
00:38:25,933 --> 00:38:28,400
TWO YEARS AFTER CHEATING ON ME,

1026
00:38:28,400 --> 00:38:30,767
I FIND THAT HE'S NOW TALKING TO

1027
00:38:30,767 --> 00:38:33,900
SOME OTHER LADY ON THE COMPUTER.

1028
00:38:33,900 --> 00:38:36,067
AND THEN THE THIRD ONE I FOUND

1029
00:38:36,067 --> 00:38:37,933
OUT WAS WHEN ALLONA WAS TWO

1030
00:38:37,933 --> 00:38:38,900
MONTHS OLD.

1031
00:38:38,900 --> 00:38:42,433
WHEN SHE WAS TWO MONTHS OLD.

1032
00:38:42,433 --> 00:38:43,900
FOR THE LONGEST TIME, I FELT

1033
00:38:43,900 --> 00:38:45,167
LIKE I WAS IN THE WRONG.

1034
00:38:45,167 --> 00:38:46,733
I MEAN, AT 700 POUNDS, WHAT DO

1035
00:38:46,733 --> 00:38:48,667
YOU EXPECT?

1036
00:38:48,667 --> 00:38:50,367
BUT HE DID IT EVEN AFTER I LOST

1037
00:38:50,367 --> 00:38:51,967
WEIGHT, SO IT'S NOT BECAUSE I

1038
00:38:51,967 --> 00:38:52,567
WAS FAT.

1039
00:38:52,567 --> 00:38:55,467
HE DID IT JUST RECENTLY.

1040
00:38:55,467 --> 00:38:59,600
NOW I WANT HIM TO GET HELP.

1041
00:38:59,600 --> 00:39:01,900
AND HE SAYS, "I DON'T NEED TO

1042
00:39:01,900 --> 00:39:02,800
GET HELP.

1043
00:39:02,800 --> 00:39:04,400
I'LL JUST STOP DOING IT."

1044
00:39:04,400 --> 00:39:05,867
DID YOU CHECK THAT MEAT FOR ME?

1045
00:39:05,867 --> 00:39:06,400
>> NOT YET.

1046
00:39:06,400 --> 00:39:07,400
>> YOU GOING TO THIS YEAR?

1047
00:39:07,400 --> 00:39:11,600
>> YES, I AM.

1048
00:39:11,600 --> 00:39:12,667
>> YOU LIKE BEING MARRIED?

1049
00:39:12,667 --> 00:39:14,467
>> YES.

1050
00:39:14,467 --> 00:39:15,900
I NEVER HAVE NOT LIKED BEING

1051
00:39:15,900 --> 00:39:17,800
MARRIED.

1052
00:39:21,833 --> 00:39:23,400
>> OUR LEASE IS ABOUT UP ON OUR

1053
00:39:23,400 --> 00:39:25,100
NEW APARTMENT, AND I KEEP

1054
00:39:25,100 --> 00:39:26,367
THINKING WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO

1055
00:39:26,367 --> 00:39:29,067
HAVE SEPARATION PAPERS DRAWN UP.

1056
00:39:29,067 --> 00:39:31,300
>> NIGHT, NIGHT.

1057
00:39:31,300 --> 00:39:33,100
>> I TRULY LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY

1058
00:39:33,100 --> 00:39:35,433
HEART, BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT I

1059
00:39:35,433 --> 00:39:36,767
NEED TO DO.

1060
00:39:36,767 --> 00:39:38,067
[ BABY CRYING ]

1061
00:39:38,067 --> 00:39:39,067
I DON'T KNOW.

1062
00:39:39,067 --> 00:39:40,600
>> I DON'T WANT TO SEPARATE.

1063
00:39:40,600 --> 00:39:42,500
I DON'T WANT A DIVORCE.

1064
00:39:48,867 --> 00:39:50,133
>> GOOD MORNING, MISS JACKIE.

1065
00:39:50,300 --> 00:39:51,367
THIS IS MELISSA FROM

1066
00:39:51,367 --> 00:39:52,400
DR. NOWZARADAN'S.

1067
00:39:52,400 --> 00:39:53,167
HOW ARE YOU?

1068
00:39:53,167 --> 00:39:54,767
I'M ON MY WAY TO COME AND SEE

1069
00:39:54,767 --> 00:39:55,200
YOU.

1070
00:39:55,200 --> 00:39:56,533
WE'RE GONNA MEET WITH A

1071
00:39:56,533 --> 00:39:58,267
PATIENT WHO IS ABOUT TO HAVE HER

1072
00:39:58,267 --> 00:40:00,767
SURGERY.

1073
00:40:00,767 --> 00:40:01,933
THIS IS WHAT I LOVE.

1074
00:40:01,933 --> 00:40:03,667
HONESTLY, THIS IS WHAT I LOVE TO

1075
00:40:03,667 --> 00:40:04,033
DO.

1076
00:40:04,033 --> 00:40:05,433
LET'S GO IN YOUR KITCHEN.

1077
00:40:05,433 --> 00:40:07,033
I'M GONNA SHOW YOU SOME STUFF

1078
00:40:07,033 --> 00:40:08,633
THAT, AFTER THE SURGERY, I

1079
00:40:08,633 --> 00:40:10,067
REALLY PREFER YOU NOT TO HAVE IN

1080
00:40:10,067 --> 00:40:10,867
YOUR HOUSE.

1081
00:40:10,867 --> 00:40:12,800
NO MALT-O-MEAL.

1082
00:40:12,800 --> 00:40:14,267
NO WAFFLES.

1083
00:40:14,267 --> 00:40:16,033
REALLY NEED TO AVOID THE NOODLES

1084
00:40:16,033 --> 00:40:17,133
AT ALL COSTS.

1085
00:40:17,133 --> 00:40:18,567
>> THANK YOU, BABY.

1086
00:40:18,567 --> 00:40:20,067
I LOVE YOU, MELISSA.

1087
00:40:20,067 --> 00:40:21,000
I LOVE YOU, BABY.

1088
00:40:21,000 --> 00:40:22,533
>> I LOVE WAKING UP AND GOING TO

1089
00:40:22,533 --> 00:40:24,900
WORK, DOING SOMETHING THAT I

1090
00:40:24,900 --> 00:40:25,600
LOVE.

1091
00:40:25,600 --> 00:40:29,033
IT JUST KEEPS ME GROUNDED.

1092
00:40:29,033 --> 00:40:33,300
I REALLY BELIEVE THAT EVERYBODY,

1093
00:40:33,300 --> 00:40:35,233
EVERYBODY SHOULD HAVE THEIR

1094
00:40:35,233 --> 00:40:37,133
CHANCE.

1095
00:40:40,433 --> 00:40:41,767
>> I USED TO TELL HER ALL THE

1096
00:40:41,767 --> 00:40:43,133
TIME I WANTED TO GROW OLD WITH

1097
00:40:43,133 --> 00:40:44,433
HER BECAUSE I REALLY DO LOVE

1098
00:40:44,433 --> 00:40:44,800
HER.

1099
00:40:44,800 --> 00:40:47,400
I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED HER.

1100
00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:49,400
I'M NOT PROUD OF WHAT I'VE DONE.

1101
00:40:49,400 --> 00:40:51,500
I'M ASHAMED OF IT.

1102
00:40:51,500 --> 00:40:53,033
SHE'S TOLD ME ONE OF THE MAIN

1103
00:40:53,033 --> 00:40:54,667
STIPULATIONS OF WHY SHE'S STILL

1104
00:40:54,667 --> 00:40:57,233
WITH ME IS THAT SHE SAID THAT IF

1105
00:40:57,233 --> 00:40:58,733
OUR MARRIAGE IS TO CONTINUE, I

1106
00:40:58,733 --> 00:41:00,667
HAVE TO GET SOME COUNSELING.

1107
00:41:04,933 --> 00:41:06,333
>> WANT TO GO HAVE A DAY WITH

1108
00:41:06,333 --> 00:41:08,733
MOM AND DAD?

1109
00:41:08,733 --> 00:41:11,433
HMM?

1110
00:41:11,433 --> 00:41:11,867
>> YEAH.

1111
00:41:11,867 --> 00:41:12,833
I'M REALLY -- I'M SORRY.

1112
00:41:12,833 --> 00:41:14,067
[ Voice breaking ] I REALLY MEAN

1113
00:41:14,067 --> 00:41:15,867
THAT.

1114
00:41:15,867 --> 00:41:18,700
I WILL MAKE THIS WORK.

1115
00:41:18,700 --> 00:41:20,067
>> THANK YOU.

1116
00:41:20,067 --> 00:41:22,867
ULTIMATELY, WITH ALL MY HEART, I

1117
00:41:22,867 --> 00:41:26,633
LOVE CHRIS.

1118
00:41:26,633 --> 00:41:29,167
I WANT TO BE WITH HIM, AND I

1119
00:41:29,167 --> 00:41:30,400
THINK THAT MY MARRIAGE IS WORTH

1120
00:41:30,400 --> 00:41:35,267
FIGHTING FOR.

1121
00:41:35,267 --> 00:41:36,933
IT'S GONNA BE A LOT OF TALKING,

1122
00:41:36,933 --> 00:41:38,300
AND NOT ONLY TALKING BUT

1123
00:41:38,300 --> 00:41:39,933
LISTENING -- LISTENING ON BOTH

1124
00:41:39,933 --> 00:41:40,767
ENDS.

1125
00:41:40,767 --> 00:41:43,400
WHEN I WAS LOSING WEIGHT, I

1126
00:41:43,400 --> 00:41:44,733
REALLY WASN'T TAKING CHRIS IN

1127
00:41:44,733 --> 00:41:46,600
ACCOUNT.

1128
00:41:46,600 --> 00:41:48,333
I KNOW THIS JOURNEY WASN'T EASY

1129
00:41:48,333 --> 00:41:49,900
FOR HIM EITHER, BUT HE STUCK

1130
00:41:49,900 --> 00:41:51,667
AROUND THROUGH EVERYTHING, WHICH

1131
00:41:51,667 --> 00:41:53,567
MEANS A LOT.

1132
00:42:02,400 --> 00:42:03,767
SUCKING IN MY STOMACH'S NOT

1133
00:42:03,767 --> 00:42:04,767
GONNA HELP, IS IT?

1134
00:42:04,767 --> 00:42:07,400
I'M SO GRATEFUL.

1135
00:42:07,400 --> 00:42:10,567
LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER.

1136
00:42:10,733 --> 00:42:11,733
>> 214.

1137
00:42:11,733 --> 00:42:14,067
>> THAT'S A BIG NUMBER.

1138
00:42:14,067 --> 00:42:15,733
>> IT'S BEEN A LITTLE BIT HARD

1139
00:42:15,733 --> 00:42:17,467
TO LOSE WEIGHT AFTER PREGNANCY,

1140
00:42:17,467 --> 00:42:18,567
BUT YOU'RE DOING GOOD.

1141
00:42:18,567 --> 00:42:20,700
YOU'RE ALMOST 88% OF YOUR EXCESS

1142
00:42:20,700 --> 00:42:21,700
BODY WEIGHT.

1143
00:42:21,700 --> 00:42:23,100
440 POUNDS.

1144
00:42:23,100 --> 00:42:24,367
YOU'VE DONE EXCELLENT.

1145
00:42:24,367 --> 00:42:25,433
I'M PROUD OF YOU.

1146
00:42:25,433 --> 00:42:27,100
>> THANKS. I APPRECIATE THAT.

1147
00:42:27,100 --> 00:42:27,967
YOU MAKE ME CRY.

1148
00:42:27,967 --> 00:42:29,467
>> CHECK A COUPLE THINGS AND SEE

1149
00:42:29,467 --> 00:42:30,367
HOW YOU'RE DOING.

1150
00:42:30,367 --> 00:42:31,633
>> SOMETIMES I LOOK IN THE

1151
00:42:31,633 --> 00:42:32,900
MIRROR AND I THINK, "WOW."

1152
00:42:32,900 --> 00:42:34,867
'CAUSE I CAN SEE THAT MY WAIST

1153
00:42:34,867 --> 00:42:36,200
IS, LIKE, THIS BIG.

1154
00:42:36,200 --> 00:42:37,733
BUT THEN SOMETIMES I LOOK IN THE

1155
00:42:37,733 --> 00:42:39,167
MIRROR AND I STILL THINK THAT

1156
00:42:39,167 --> 00:42:41,267
I'M FAT, SO I STILL HAVE ISSUES.

1157
00:42:41,267 --> 00:42:43,067
>> YOU HAVE DONE MARVELOUS.

1158
00:42:43,067 --> 00:42:43,900
>> THANK YOU.

1159
00:42:44,067 --> 00:42:45,800
I COULD TELL YOU THIS WHOLE

1160
00:42:45,800 --> 00:42:47,833
JOURNEY WAS EASY, BUT THAT WOULD

1161
00:42:47,833 --> 00:42:49,533
BE A LIE, BUT IT WOULDN'T BE A

1162
00:42:49,533 --> 00:42:51,467
LIE TO TELL YOU IT WAS WORTH IT.

1163
00:42:51,467 --> 00:42:54,667
NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S

1164
00:42:54,667 --> 00:42:57,767
LIKE TO GO FROM WHERE I WAS TO

1165
00:42:57,767 --> 00:43:03,300
WHERE I AM TODAY.

1166
00:43:03,300 --> 00:43:04,867
I'M LIVING THE DREAM THAT I'VE

1167
00:43:04,867 --> 00:43:06,467
ALWAYS WANTED AND NEVER KNEW I

1168
00:43:06,467 --> 00:43:06,867
DID.

1169
00:43:06,867 --> 00:43:08,267
YOU READY TO GO TO THE NEW

1170
00:43:08,267 --> 00:43:08,733
HOUSE?

1171
00:43:08,733 --> 00:43:09,467
>> [ LAUGHS ]

1172
00:43:09,467 --> 00:43:10,667
>> IF IT WEREN'T FOR THE

1173
00:43:10,667 --> 00:43:12,133
WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, I WOULDN'T

1174
00:43:12,133 --> 00:43:13,267
STILL BE HERE.

1175
00:43:13,267 --> 00:43:14,400
OH. THANK YOU.

1176
00:43:14,400 --> 00:43:16,100
I'M VERY APPRECIATIVE OF

1177
00:43:16,100 --> 00:43:17,767
EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE.

1178
00:43:17,767 --> 00:43:19,533
PACK UP YOUR BOOKS.

1179
00:43:19,533 --> 00:43:20,433
I LOVE LIFE.

1180
00:43:20,433 --> 00:43:23,300
>> YOU READY TO GO?

1181
00:43:23,300 --> 00:43:25,067
>> LIFE IS MEANT TO BE LIVED TO

1182
00:43:25,067 --> 00:43:26,767
ITS FULLEST, AND THAT'S MY FULL

1183
00:43:26,767 --> 00:43:28,567
INTENTIONS OF DOING IT -- LIVING

1184
00:43:28,567 --> 00:43:31,333
IT TO ITS FULLEST.

1185
00:43:31,333 --> 00:43:32,933
ARE YOU HOME, MAMA?